Outsider Syndrome

Feeling like an outsider/outcast, struggling with identity crisis, and a little insight into homeschooling and how it has been going for us. 

My anxiety has been at an all time high lately and I am trying to find the best way to maneuver though it while trying to give my best self to my husband, kids, and those around me. I hate the cup analogy and normally say "screw the cup and how full it is", but I feel as if I am pouring full cups from a cup that was empty.